Saturday, July 9, 2011
Saying that, i have loved sitting in front of the fire with the kids in the evening, and starting the embers a light in the morning. And life here has been rolling along quite nicely and with ease. Which has been quite a contrast to our Shamrock St plans! I wont bore you with the details but it has stalled quite dramatically, and paused the momentum enough that it has made us stop and think about things.
Is this mammoth reno not ment to be....? Are these hurdles here to question which may we should be going...?
My mum told me once, "Viva, you are good at life. You have always known the right path to take and with such commitment."
I believe that to be true mostly, I have always trusted my instincts when making decision, and so far they have helped me to create an genuinely happy and for-filled life.
But this decision, of wether we keep on this Shamrock St path or veer off it and stay down the coast has really thrown me.
I remember when i wrote this first post, thinking that we were not just finishing a chapter, but ending a book on that time of our life. I think i did in some ways know there was an element of uncertainty of how the next book was going to go then, but it has only been in the last month or that is has surfaced.
I hope i have articulated ok the numerous thoughts, concerns and apprehensions that have been going through my mind over the last month. I felt the need to get in out of my head into words, (hoping it might help with the decision making!)
I have often wondered what my dad would have advised....but i think i know that answer.